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[18 Sep 2005|12:26pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | don omar - ella y yo ] i have a boyfriend. his name is Will & he is awesome. I care for him wayyyyy tooo much. he is always going to be here for me. nothing will separate us. be jealous. :) school started. yay for us. i missed my friends so it was good to see them. but at the same time i miss going to work because i had a lot of fun there. oh well. this whole live journal thing is getting old to me. haha i think i'm just got gonna do it anymore because its not like i use it anymore. mwahz, love me. this is my baby. William. woooooooo i got him that shot glass in virginia beach tehe 1 took away the ::empty space

[12 Aug 2005|11:34pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | shake it off - mariah ] tomorrow i go to virginia beach for a week & i'm bringing jillian. muwuahahaha. in a way i dont really wanna go because i want to go to work. pathetic, i know. but i love work. especailly william. wooooottt. i dont really remember of anything specific happening in the past month. my gma isnt doing well at all.. i walk to the nursing home on my breaks so i can see her. today william walked me there and i got to see her for a lil.. she was miserable and wanted it all to end. :(. on a good note walking there i saw branka passing in the car, honking at us. haha i havent seen her in FOREVER (whats up with that?) ..so it made me smile. so virginia jillie - should be sick. brent found WIBBY!! wooooo thanks love. :) ok now i must go wait for a phone call. ;) much love. empty space

another summer in windham [25 Jul 2005|09:56am] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | system of a down ] yea so i got home from windham last night around 11. i miss them very much. more than ever. i hate only staying a week but it was better than nothing. i have so much fun up there, and nothing could go wrong. i played paintball for the first time with brent, steve, & evan at karl's work. it was fun. for the talent show steve, john, kristen, & i did brittany spears' i love rock & roll. we had no idea what we were doing. we didnt even know what song we were doing until 10 mins. before we went on. but that's how we roll :-P. we also grabbed brent up there without his knowledge so that was funny too. nothing could beat the spice girls last year, but this was good. i played about an hour & a half of bball with brent on the concrete with no shoes later that night. he got an insanely big blister. my feet just hurt. but it was worth it because i learned more than i would here. & he is hard on me with that stuff so i actually listened. jack smith was there which was awesome. he sings to me. with his one eye and everything. :). lee is the new lifeguard which is cool because i just that made me & kristen actually stay by the pool, resulting in tans & lighter hair. woot woot. Steve & Bobbie came up. i havent seen bobby in 2 years so it was nice. even though he brought an annoying, mind controlling, wont let him do anything, has to get her way on everything person that he calls his girlfriend. oh well. then Steve A. came over to hang out a couple times which was awesommeeeee. Lee, Steve, & I are planning on going to six flags sometime this summer. & Lee used to live over by Berganfield & is going down to visit his friends so we plan on seeing each other then too. I wish it was that easy to see everyone at The THouse. ohhh god, brent, steve, lee, john, & ev made a movie up there during the fall and it is AMAZING. first they redid banana phone from ebaulms world, than they did manbeer for something in school and then The Manor House. ohh that was amazing. Brent gave me his copy so i was very happy about that. i'm very excited to show everyone how they are up there haah. i love it. hahah kristen and i went to albany to go to the mall on a rainy day and i saw a shirt maknig place so i got brent one that sayd M.I.L.F. HUNTER on the front and then his last name *the guy spelt it wrong* and his favorite number on the back. haha its great. i got a handmade frog that he brought me back from hawwii so i was happy bout that. i got to see molly & catie which also made me happy. :) love those girlies. kurt has a girlfriend of almost a year, he isnt the same kurt. which makes me & everyone else sad. he was never really around, i miss him. but what can you do.. I had an amazing time & i miss you guys. Aside from the fun, the second day i called my gma to wish her a happy bday and no one picked up, and it was pretty late so i called my mom to see where she was. She was put into the hospital ealier that day. i was really upset & i just knew something was of course going to happen when i was up there, the first year she was with me. She isnt doing well at all, she had a silent heart attack while she was there and she will be staying the the hospital. gma is 92 and it is just too soon for all of this to happen, it wasnt too long ago that aunt ginny died & i'm very close with my gma. without her i wouldnt know any of my windham friends. I'm so thankful she is in my life. My dad was supposed to stay the week as well, but my gpa is also doing bad. He had to bring him to doctors and stuff & wanted to put him into the hospital. but he didnt need to go into a hospital. just different medication & gpa needs to gain weight. My dad said he looks like he came out of a concentration camp. so yea, my only 2 living grandparents arent doing well at all. but, i'm glad i found all this out in windham rather being at home. i was upset when i found out, but my friends made me better right away and had me having a lot of fun. if i were home i would just be a wreck. I'm working on getting a job there next summer. I got the OK from my mom. which amazed me, she even asked me to ask them. So that made me very happy. all i have to do now is get debbie & eric to let me. which wont really be all that easy, but i'm going to write them a long letter at the end of the THouse season so they are stress free and in good moods :). hopefully when they get the letter it will be a good day for them. tehe. i would love to work there. thats like my dream. oooohhh i want too. 5 took away the ::empty space

ow baby [03 Jul 2005|11:43pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | One Thing - Amerie ] hmm lets see. well, I started work last tuesday. waitressing at preakness hills country club. its ok, nothing big, just long hours when you're on your feet. 10 hours today, and whoa my feet are hurting. I love where I work actually. Everyone is Spanish, and we all know how much I love that. No one believes I'm 15, and it's funny because it is a "rumor" that I'm 15. haha they have nothing better to talk about. One of the cooks was like.. there is a rumor going around.. and I'm like yea I'm 15. ha. The members there are nice, but there are such freaking stuck up ass holes. My first day I asked a guy if he was a member and supposively that was a BIG no no. And Wilton told me I asked the wrong guy haha. oh well. It also sucks that I can't open my mouth when ppl like him speak. Oh but the kitchen is so different from the outside. omg I love it. They blast Krock and the cooks are like doing mosh pits and oh I just lub it. Ozzie, my mentor for the first week, loves me. He is 47 and tells me I'm beautiful every day. Literally, he tells me at least twice a day. Today he did it 3 times in a row. The asked if I worked out because I'm "strong" hahahah. I was like omg.. he has all the right intentions, very nice man, but why do I have to have a 47 year old and not like a 17 year old say that to me? lol.. I'm starting to warm up to everyone too which is good. Tonight they had a BBQ and me & Felvin were having a blast. We made waiting on ppl a competition to make it interesting lol. It sucks because I just found out that he doesnt really work there, just there for a few days to help out. ggr. Erika is awesome, she is a doll. Last night I hung out with Bri. I went to her house and we wanted to go to preakness but no one would drive us.. so her brother Brandon said he will, but he was grounded. Apparently he didnt care. He is extremely mean to his mother. I couldnt believe some of the stuff he was saying. Then he got into the car and told us to get in and drive off. hah I was like omg. So he brought us to get ice cream and then we got back in the car and all of a sudden he is flipping out about the cops stopping him and shit. He has anger managemnt lol. The whole way back to my house he was yelling and screaming about it haahh. Then we realize that they were behind us the whole time, and followed us to my house lol. oh boy.. I went shopping yesterday, be jealous. Today is my ma's bday too. 11 days 'til Windham. I'm so excited and happy to see everyone, but this will be the first summer in 9 years that I only stay a week. A week is way too short for me. I usually stay 3 or at least 2. I know it is better than nothing, but no one understand how much I need to be with those people. :( I'm going to be a wreck when I come back, so honestly, don't get on my nerves. And if you don't hear from me for like a week after I get back, don't be surprised, last year I was like shut off from the world haha. Ugh it's gonna go by so fast, and I don't think I will be able to randomly go up there because of work. The only thing I can think of is staying at Karl's when I have days off. But stillllll :(. Steve asked me if I could go to six flags with him and well, he said us, so I'm guessing him, Lee, Brent, & the rest of the band. So hopefully that will pull through, that would be nice. empty space

la la la [20 Jun 2005|12:29pm] [ mood | devious ] [ music | Bon Jovi - I'll be there for you ] hmm well lets see, i dont remember much that happened since my last entry. Thursday I slept over Stephs and went to the mall, where these ghetto kids decided to interupt me while i was shopping, and Steph was all like, "Clare!! come here! they wanna talk!" so i walk out all, "you know you interrupted me, what the fff?" so yea he wanted my bleepy thing on my phone and now he wont leave me alone. haha, oh well. hmm friday i went to the local band show where my favorite, framework, was playing so i started to talk to mike (vocals) and ted (guitar) and it ended up with them dedicating my favorite song to me :). woot woot. And i have amazing pictures as well (in this entry), thanks to Molly. :). We were stranded there so Jon & Espo came all the way from North Haldon to get us, after having to sprint to Shop Rite, but it's all good, they are life savors, and i didnt have to ride in the trunk this time.. But we got home really late and Mrs. J wasnt very pleased.. Saturday was fun. My brother and cousin had a combined grad. party at my aunts house is montclair. Soooo many ppl were there and I didnt know half of them. I brought Steph, Larry brought Brad, and every one else was there that I love and it was mucho fun. Played bball and softball and hung out. Then ended the night off with beer games. oh lord. haha, the best part, my parents started to sit down and talk to us while we were playing it like nothing haha. Oh yea, and Steph's parents were in PA but i told my parents that they didnt go, so we could sleep over Steph's instead of mine. tehehe. We got home like 12:15 all tipsy and then decided to walk up to the diner at 1:30. That was funfilled. lol. Steph wouldnt let me out of her sight, which made me crabby. hha.. hmmm, yea so spent the night there alone and woke up to her uncle and others working on the house, and it took me forever to try and sneak downstairs without them seeing me.. but i just ended up walking right passed them, not even realizing haha. Then went to see how my gpa is doing, which isnt very good. he managed to have like 3 lil strokes the other week, and then crack open his head, leaving him with like 5 huge ass staples in his head. Oh boy.. Then went back to aunts for dinner. Then home to help Larry clean out his car, ew. This morning Steph, Kevin, Ed, & I went to sunrise instead of 6th period exam because we all had nothing to do in those classes. Then we walked down to stop and shop along with Yuseff. Then back..Mr. Winters hates me and Mitch even more than he did. First, Ugo started to mouth something to me during the exam, well, we were done, but not others. And i got in trouble for that, only i had my head phones on so i just figured he said be quiet, but he also said take off your sun glasses, and i just sat there, and mitch pokes me and points to Winters and i was like yea i heard him.. and just sat there and Ugo was like omg, and made gestures saying take off your glasses and they were laughing.. Winters just covered his face and laughed so that wasnt bad. But then me and Mitch started to play slap jack haah and we really werent that bad, but he was getting annoyed, so called me and mitch up to the front of the class, and was like "what do you see when you look at this class!" us- "they are quiet" "Yes! they are! do you think you are higher than them, more superior and you can talk?" "no" "Good! now sit down, i told you twice to stop dont make me say it a 3rd time or i'm going to rip off up your exam" omg i wanted to crack up so bad, i was trying soo hard to keep a straight face. hha, and then, yea, that wasnt all..he was like, "oh it is the last exam of the year, and you think ppl would know to put the test number on the test, but no, there are still ppl who dont, and it seems that these ppl have a lot to talk about" haha i pretended i didnt hear him because i had my music playing, and then he saw that i wasnt caring and then he was like "you know that is points taken off" and i just kept bobbing my head.. haha. Mitch was pissed but i dont really care, i laughed. Then when the bell rang i got up and said, "BYE MR. WINTERS!!!!" haha i love it. he hated my brother and mitch's brother freshman year, with them sitting next to each other, and then he had us next to each other hah. love it. And now i'm home... I'm pissed because I havent been coming home after school but I did today because I wanted to do my history extra credict but of course I forgot my book.. oh well. OH! I dyed Sweets' hair black! it is toooo cute! framework Mike & Dan Mike Ted Mike Ted Ted, Me, Mike - wooottt 3 took away the ::empty space

[21 May 2005|01:22am] [ mood | content ] [ music | scooter ] hmm well last weekend me, Jill, & Steph went to the mall and got stopped by 2 black guys. One hitting on Steph, the other one taking me to the side and asking for my number and address, might I add he was about 24 and when I told him how old I was he yelled, "Shit!" and then asked for my number. Creeps, but flattering. Then we saw Mike. wooo hoo. Oh yea and the night before we went to the carnival and I SOO SAW ANGEL ! For the first time in 5 years!!! Oh it was great, spent the whole night with that kid. It was like OLC all over again. I love you Angel! Then we went to PA Saturday night. Fun fun, as usual. mmuuahaha Softball is going downhill. The coach is getting on Steph's and Jill's nerves, and vise versa. So there is fighting everyday, which led to Steph being kicked off the team today, even though there is only one game left. Congratulations Stephanie, you accomplished what everyone else wanted. She also made Varsity Cheerleading, so if any sophmore or junior has a problem with that because you guys are still on JV and she made it over you, you can suck my non existent dick. Stop saying shit, she is better than you. That's why when the professional judges watched you guys, she got a 95 out of 100. That's my girl. My Grandpa isn't doing so good :(. My dad said he looks horrible and sickly. He has stopped eating, which led my aunts and father to think he wants to die. Which makes me sad. I can't handle another lose. Larry, Jill, & I felt like going to the Diner instead of 1st period the other day, it was fun. :) Tonight Steph, me, and Bri went to see Monster-In-Law around 9:30. Good movie. We didnt have a ride home though, and we couldn't call either of our parents because they would have flipped. So I called Larry and he saved us, about an hour later.. so we were wondering around Wayne until 12. That was fun too. Especially when all weird people are out at that hour, staring at you for being hyper and doing the penguin and shopping cart dance to please and amuse Steph & Bri. ♥ Love you girls. P.A. tomorrow. Oh yes, It shall be fun. I'm doing an English project, making a video, reenacting the Odyssey with TJ, Steph, Erick, Lance, and myself as the characters. wooohooo. Next weekend for the break PA as well, 6 days to my galore. I lub getting away <3. yea so, I'm keeping myself up so I can finish 3 speeches, reading of a play for theater arts exam, and script reading for the thesbian thing Andrew graciously signed me up for. :) PS. I've become such a Myspace Whore. And the funny thing is, about 2 months ago I was complaining how stupid they were. I'm obsessed. & Mike Abate has become my new phone buddy. woot woot. Oh, and I'm still here, by the way, it might not seem as if I'm the same exact person, but that isn't my fault. & I'm still the same person. I'm still here. It's not like I forgot about you. I won't make it difficult for you, believe it or not. Don't say I need to put more effort into it when I have been trying, and getting nothing out of it. 1 took away the ::empty space

[11 May 2005|09:50pm] [ mood | mischievous ] [ music | Oasis - wonder wall ] mmmmmmhmmmmm. Softball game every day this week so far. We were walking down the the field yesterday, ready to practice, and guess what! Hey guys!! We have a game! and its away! Good one on informing us coach. It was a make up game, and we lost, we were winning, but then we got lazy. And I got nicee scratches on my leg and ass from sliding to home, because I'm that hardcore. Steph is finally back. Out of all the weekends she had to go away, she had to pick this one. Oh she would have been a help this weekend with the plans. ppooooooo. But I got a coolio neckless and jewlery holder out of it. So it's all good. We are going to the carnival tomorrow night, and a family friend that works for my dad is working the Pharaoh (I think, unless they switch rides..). WOOOO HOOO KARL! So we have a game on Friday, a home game, and thanks to Danielle, I'll be getting a visitor who is gonna come and watch too :). Then me and Steph are going on a nonparental weekend in PA. wooot woot. Also, my ma is going on the "sister weekend" in Shelter Island, starting tomorrow thur Sunday. Need I say more? Windham in 2 months. Thank God. This year, is going to be THE year. hmm, I think I have just given up. empty space

push me, and then just touch me, 'til i can get my, satisfaction. [07 May 2005|05:45pm] [ mood | flirty ] [ music | Satisfaction ] whoa, these past 2 weekends..were great. last friday Steph had a party and it was mucho fun. Wrestling match with the boys with Pedro as my "coach" is always great. The next day I went for my usual jog and I was chased by 3 boys, streaking. Very random, but so funny. I forgot what else happened, but I know I had a great weekend. Then last night was Danielle's surprise sweet 16 :) Happy bday babe!! That was fun too! I made 5 new friends :). Alicia, Ash, Kev, Justin, & Chels. woooo. Today was Andrew's commfirmation party. SO FUN. There was mucho spanish daning and it was awesome. I LOVE spanish dancing and this one song Andrew & I danced for like 9 minutes straight, taking up the wholeee dance floor. So much fun. His dad thought my arm was gonna get ripped off haha. Oh yea, I remember, last weekend, the Sunday. SWEETS & I went shopping!! hah I LOVE you babe. So much fun with you. It had been sooooo long since we hung out. So glad we got together. Steph is in the Bahammas for the weekend, random.. I know. WINDHAM CREW! 2 MONTHS & 7 DAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS <<<333 I'll FINALLY be home. No one treats me as good as you guys do, the only place where I feel welcomed <3. Can't wait. I love having fun <3 3 took away the ::empty space

[23 Apr 2005|11:48pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | System of a Down - BYOB ] mmhmm well today was eventful + tiring. I woke up uber early, at Stephs... and was extremely bored so I went running for 20 mins. Took a shower, studied for Bio a lil and TV. because, yes, I am that cool. Then Steph decides we should walk to DePaul to see Nick's La Crosse game. So, we did. I swear, in the last month I have walked all over freaking Wayne. So after the game we went to Charlie Brown's and yum salad bar. Then to preakness where we went to visit Larry working at the pizza place and saw Steff and her friend Evan there. We went driving with them, to where, must be annoymous, it was uncontrollable due to the fact Steff was driving. thank you oh so very much on that one. Then we went back to DePaul to meet up with Nick and some of his friends, which wasnt a bad idea. cough. Then walked home. So pretty much walked the whole day, which I liked, so it was all good. Once we got back I fell asleep on the couch. and now my tummy hurts. I have to go to a poppy baby shower tommorrow for my cousin. blahhh Monday we have a home game at 4. what now, yayyyy. Ed's our # 1 fan. Yay, Tuesday I get to chill with Matt. Steve is gonna come down here with the Windham crew and steal me, I CANT wait. Sweets, you're invited. You still need to met all the people you have heard endless hours at night in the summer about. Oh what memories <3 I'm happy, because I dont care. yes. Oh, and my new songs are BYOB (fucking amazing, honestly) & believe it or not, Don't Phunk with my heart, Blackeyed Peas. mmhmm. so good. 2 took away the ::empty space

The cup is half empty, as pessimists say.. [16 Apr 2005|11:22pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | The Used - Poetic Tragedy ] mmhmmm. This spring break: 1. Got 9 inches of hair cut off from my head 2. PA 3. Met new ppl (yay) 4. Ball Ball Ball 5. Spent only 2 nights in my own house. (I live at Steph's) 6. Got 2 new CDs, both from The Used 7. Got the new biography of Anthony Kiedis; Scar Tissue (wooooooooooo) 8. Caused trouble (always fun) 9. Thought about a lot. 10. Wishful Thinking Spring Break is almost over, and I really don't heed. This wasn't my best spring break and I'm ready to get the last 2 and a half months of freshman year done with. Which I might add, I'm definately slacking, unfortunately. I had to ask my mom a few questions for my next speech assingment, I learned a lot about my family that I didn't think was possible, only because I didn't think it would get as bad. I'm going shopping tomorrow ♥ I need my Windham family, I can't function without you guys <3 - I told you everything Opened up and let you in You made me feel alright For once in my life Now all that's left of me Is what I pretend to be So together, but so broken up inside. ..At least I had a week to myself, right? Things are so disconcerting and I crave for the adoring reception again. The cynical and hurtful remarks are so taboo. 1 took away the ::empty space

[10 Apr 2005|10:22pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | kc & jojo ] went to PA this weekend, Steph wanted to take me away, let's just say we got into trouble involving our names having to get written down. i hate this. to keep my mind off things.. name = Clare piercings = ears & cartilage tattoos = no i wants tho height= 5'6"ish shoe size = depends on the shoe hair color = dirty blonde siblings = bert larry and charlie LAST.. movie you rented = ancorman song you listened to = all my life - kc & jojo song that was stuck in your head = scotty doesnt know cd you bought = burn 'em all cd you listened to = my chemical romance/senses fail = good source of music to listen to when you are depressed. person that's called you = anthony movie you bought = finding nemo Do.... you have a crush on someone = it's more, sadly. you wish you could live somewhere else = <333 windham takes the pain away & makes me feel special. you think about suicide = idk you believe in online dating = nope others find you attractive = steph has a crush on me. you want more piercings = yea you like cleaning = yes you like roller coasters = yeah you write in cursive or print = print, but no one can read it, including myself. FOR OR AGAINST... long distance relationships: for myself, no, for others, go for it. using drugs = illegal- against suicide = anti killing people = depends if they deserve it, wow that was mean. teenage smoking = eww driving drunk = retards gay/lesbian = for soap operas = idc HAVE YOU... ever cried over a girl = over friends yes ever cried over a boy = for the past 5 days. ever lied to some = yup ever been in a fist fight = not a serious one, but i wrestle with my friends. ever been arrested = no, but close to prosecution WHAT... shampoo do you use = panteen shoes do you wear = sandles are you scared of = sharks, and.. loosing someone close to me, ironic, right? Number.... of times I have been in love = truely 1 of times I have had my heart broken = friends - 1; boy type relationship - 1 of trust with my life type friends? = not many of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = a lot of scars on my body? = like 25, seriously. of things in my past that I regret? = umm a few DO YOU THINK YOU ARE... pretty? depends funny? depends hot? depends friendly? yeah amusing? ppl like to laugh at me, so i guess yea. loveable? always & forever caring? yeah sweet? i can be dorky? totally. FAVORITE: word: babe or goober actor: drew barrymore / adam sandler or denzel band: i'm really liking the used right now, but there are way too many to name. candy: resees / peanut m&ms cartoon: mhmm, this is a toughy. cereal: rice crispy treats / rain nut brand chewing gum: winterfresh color(s): green/silver color nail polish: silver / blue day of week: friday jewelry: too many movie(s)idk song: ugh these are too hard to answer.. summer/winter: winter trampolines or swimming pools: trampoline Friendship/Love Do you believe in love at first site??: yea Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: yes 3/4 Nickname(s): clarey, clare bear, sisco, lil sisc, *rabid monkey* Glasses/Contacts: neither Do you have any pets?: smudgie <3 You get embarrassed: barely What upsets you?: lies Finish the sentence I Love: my friends I Miss: augie I Wish: idk anymore I'm Annoyed by: lies I Am: vulnerable I Want to Be: happy I Would Never: hurt you I'd Rather be: in my bed I Am Tired of: this shit I Will Always be: loud and spontanious, no matter what happens. Have you ever.. Thought you were going to die: sure Flunked a grade: nope Skipped a grade: no Told someone you loved them and lied: I wouldnt do that, because I know how it feels, and it is horrible. empty space

my heart </3 [07 Apr 2005|08:55am] [ mood | crushed ] never thought it would happen. took so much of me to love and trust you. and then it slaps me right back in the face. wow, you left me so cold. maybe while you were feeling this a WEEK ago or how ever long you felt it, you could have tried to make it better. But instead you let me say I love you and hold your hand and kiss you, and tell ppl you were my best friend and I loved you. And you did the same, only I meant it. I still love you so much. I dont want anyone to be mad at you because you are a good person. You made me so happy and I need you so much. I'm so afraid to open the box because, idk. I feel like all the memories are gone forever and I don't want that at all. I dont want to loose you. You were different. And I know a lot of people say that when they get out of a GOOD relationship. But I honestly feel that way. You are the prototype of a perfect guy. I just dont know what happened. 2 took away the ::empty space

Scotty Doesn't Know. [28 Mar 2005|10:39am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Scotty Doesn't know..Eurotip ] I'm so happy for my dad, he gets to visit his best friend Kevin. They grew up next to each other and have been best friends since they were 2. Kevin has a disease and doesnt have very long to live and he lives in Florida. For the first time in a long time, my dad is going to see him and he is so excited! I'm so happy for him! ..For some reason I have been upset lately. Over everything, I hate it, and I can't express it to anyone, I don't want anyone getting all worried. But it will pass... Something to keep me busy.. What is your name? Clare Are you named after anyone? Gma <3 What's your screename? Smooch It xO Would you name a child of yours after you? no If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be? If I had to pick, Caleb or Travis or Tyler ot a name like that, but my ma.. probably something like Archie.. ugh If you could switch names with a friend who would it be? Bianca Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly? ok ppl, it is CLARE not ClaIre. Would you drop your last name if you became famous? no way I love my last name. Basics Your gender: girl.. Straight/Gay/Bi: straight Single? nope If not, do you want to be? ... Birthdate: 11.17.04 <3 Your age: 15 Age you act: 5 Age you wish you were: I used to want to be older for reasons, but I have just want I need at the age I am now. Your height: 5'6'' Eye color: light brown Happy with it? I want green eyes Hair color: (dirrty) blonde Happy with it? yea, it changes like 3 times a year and I think it's cool. Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Lefty biotches. Your living arrangement: brothers & parents Your family: ma, dad, bert, larry, charlie, smudge, steph. Have any pets? yea, I lub my Smudgie <3 ((dog)) Whats your job? help dad at office and babysit Piercings? soon to be 5 Tattoos? none ...yet Obsessions? MUSIC! Addictions? fruit Do you speak another language? spanish but i suck Have a favorite quote? "Sing like you think no one's listening" Do you have a webpage? yes, I SO have a myspace, don't hate. Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it.. Do you live in the moment? no Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? yes Do you have any secrets? course, it's hard for me to trust. Do you hate yourself? sometimes Do you like your handwriting? yes, it's sloppy and no one can read it. Do you have any bad habits? yea, I crack my knuckles and say what's on my mind, But to me that isn't so bad. What is the compliment you get from most people? compliments on my ass. If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? "Unpredictable" What's your biggest fear? loosing someone closet to me, I hate it. Can you sing? nope Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? no, I like the individuality. Are you a loner? no What are your ..1 priorities in life? my friends and boyfriend. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? well duh. Are you a daredevil? yea I would like to say I am. Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? jeaously = pain in the ass Are you passive or agressive? umm aggressive Do you have a journal? yes What is your greatest strength and weakness? strength - I'm pretty good in bad situations and I know what to do and what to say and give good advice. Weakness - if we are talking about weakness to the opposite sex - ear & neck kisses If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? my emotions. Do you think you are emotionally strong? I have to be. Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? yes. Do you think life has been good so far? only some parts, others, I hate. What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Just because they're family, doesnt mean they wont turn on you. What do you like the most about your body? my ass And least? my feet Do you think you are good looking? depends Are you confident? idk sometimes. yea, sure. What is the fictional character you are most like? taz manian devil Are you perceived wrongly? idk I dont think so? Do You... Smoke? noo Do drugs? no Read the newspaper? nope Pray? nope Go to church? nope Talk to strangers who IM you? yup Sleep with stuffed animals? of course Take walks in the rain? my favorite Talk to people even though you hate them? I dont hate anyone. Drive? nope Like to drive fast? yup Would or Have You Ever? Liked your voice? yes it is on the deeper side and to me that's oh so very sexy (Mitch) Hurt yourself? yea Been out of the country? yes Canada Eaten something that made other people sick? probably, I eat Sushi sometimes. Been in love? yes <3 Done drugs? I've smoked before if that counts; it is gross. Gone skinny dipping? hah yes Had a medical emergency? yes, many. Had surgery? yup, my eyes. Ran away from home? yea Played strip poker? yea Gotten beaten up? not in a real situation or fight. Beaten someone up? oh all the time.. no I havent..Only me and Steph beat each other up. Oh no wait, I forgot, I got thrown through a door once by my BOYFRIEND. :P Been picked on? yea Been on stage? I live on stage Slept outdoors? oh yea Thought about suicide? uh, idk. Pulled an all nighter? of course. If yes, what is your record? ...all night? lol Gone one day without food? yea I don't have time. Talked on the phone all night? yes Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex? yea Slept all day? i wish Killed someone? no Made out with a stranger? nope Had sex with a stranger? oh yea, because I'm that cool. No I have not thank you. Thought you're going crazy? all the time. Kissed the same sex? Not that I know of. Done anything sexual with the same sex? nope Been betrayed? you know it. Had a dream that came true? yes :) Broken the law? yea Met a famous person? Howard Stern. Have you ever killed an animal by accident? I almost killed my brother. no just kidding. On purpose? do ants and magnaflying glasses count? Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? no. Stolen anything? sure Been on radio/tv? yea Been in a mosh-pit? yea, got a bruise on the side of my face and arm. It was great. Had a nervous breakdown? yea Bungee jumped? Dude I wish.. Had a dream that kept coming back? probably gonna have it again tonight.. Beliefs Belive in life on other planets? no Miracles? depends on my mood. Astrology? yes Magic? yea God? yea Satan? no Santa? doesn't everybody? Ghosts? how can I not when I like live in the Manor House all during Windham.. Luck? sometimes Love at first sight? yea Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)? no Witches? nope Easter bunny? yea he gave me these awesome hand made jewlery and wallet from India yesterday Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? possible.. Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? sure why not Do you wish on stars? always. Deep Theological Questions Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? kinda, honesntly, idk anymore. Do you think God has a gender? male? lol Do you believe in organized religion? no, I used to be catholic, and then my ma decided not to believe in organized religion and took the whole family with her.. Where do you think we go when we die? cemetery. Friends Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? I live for them. Who is your best friend? Steph, Ugo, Anthony, Bronx, Augie Who's the one person that knows most about you? Steph What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? just cry. Your favourite inside joke? too many.. Thing you're picked on most about? my goofiness and how I put "aaaa" at the end of my words. Who's your longest known friend? Steph & Timmy Newest? they keep coming Shyest? Amanda Funniest? Ugo Sweetest? Kat Closest? Steph, Ugo, Ant, Branka, Augie Weirdest? Kelly B. Smartest? Andrew Ditziest? Kelly B. Friends you miss being close to the most? Brent & Kurt Last person you talked to online? My baby boy Augie Who do you talk to most online? Augie Who are you on the phone with most? Augie Who do you trust most? depends on the situation. Who listens to your problems? I dont share my problems. Who do you fight most with? Me & Steph pick at each other all the time, because we are sisters. Who's the nicest? Ed Who's the most outgoing? Branka Who's the best singer? Liz :P Who's on your shit-list? Don't have one.. Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? Can't say that I have.. Who's your second family? Jantzen's - more like first family. Then Goettsche's Do you always feel understood? nope, how can others understand me when I can't understand myself? Who's the loudest friend? Vanessa Do you trust others easily? no they have to gain my trust Who's house were you last at? Grandpa's Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Agustin <3 Do your friends know you? No, I'm just some random stranger.. yea they know me.. Friend that lives farthest away: All my Windham Family <3 Love and All That Do you consider love a mistake? not at all. What do you find romantic? hmm. I'm a "softie" as Steph says, I fall for anything. Turn-on? humor/fun; eyes, lips, & hair Turn-off? Smelly and cocky First kiss? Mike in 7th If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel? flattered Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them? yea..That's usually how it's done. Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out? sure, if the girl wants to do it, I wouldnt though haha. Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? No, but that is only because I have good taste and the guys I like for their personality always turn out to be beautiful, haha. Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? you tell me. What is best about the opposite sex? they don't live in a world of drama & you can just chill with them knowing nothing will eff up. What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? idk not every guy is the same. What's the last present someone gave you? Larry got me this frog thing the other day. Are you in love? always & forever. Do you consider your significant other hot? No, he is AMAZINGLY goregous. Who Was the Last Person... That haunted you? Gma Thompson haha You wanted to kill? brother That you laughed at? cousin Tommy That laughed at you? my whole family. That turned you on? Augie duh You went shopping with? Steph That broke your heart? It's all fixed <3 To disappoint you? idk To ask you out? Augie To make you cry? ... To brighten up your day? my friends :) That you thought about? Windhammmmmmmmm You saw a movie with? Augie, JJ, Matt, & Kim = Ring 2 :) You talked to on the phone? Augie You talked to through IM/ICQ? Augie You saw? Charlie You lost? Aunt Ginny <3 Right This Moment... Are you going out? not right now. Will it be with your significant other? later on hopefully. Or some random person? .. What are you wearing right now? Augie's soccer shirt and my froggie pj pants Body part you're touching right now: I have a pimple on my face and it is pissing me off. What are you worried about right now? I won't be able to see Augie today What book are you reading? nada What's on your mousepad? COMP USA The Computer SuperStore! Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: energized, confused, hungary, lazy, optimistic. Are you bored? yes Are you tired? yes Are you talking to anyone online? no Are you talking to anyone on the phone? no Are you lonely or content? content Are you listening to music? yes.. Straylight Run - Existentialism On Prom Night 4 took away the ::empty space

[16 Mar 2005|08:04pm] [ mood | naughty ] [ music | The Mars Volta - The Widow ] hmmm I thought last night I was going to go insane.. we had a power outage and my wholeeeeee family were in 2 rooms of each other. Larry & Charlie were yelling at each other, ma and dad were yelling at them to stop. Then Larry was making unnessecary noises and he was being annoying and wouldnt shut up so I started yelling at him. Then Bert was being himself commenting on everything we do, then he asked my ma is he can have some wine, so he had some, which led to Charlie and Larry having some, and eventually me. Ma said a only glass, but I had more and Larry started to laugh and my dad was like no! they cant have any and my ma was like why not I was allowed when I was younger.. and dad said "see what happened! you cant stop even after the third glass!" haha oh it was funny. I realized that I cant really hold a lot of alcohol.. which is a disappointment considering I thought I had my ma's side of alcohol holdage? I have also realized I have a jealous side. I know everyone does, but jealous. Today in Fallen's class I got to be a radical and yell at the class. My favorite. I'm grounded, blahhhh Spring break soon, THANK GOD. Which means one more season 'til summer, which means closer to WINDHAM!!!! Yea so I made the softball team, so I'm happy bout that. I'm the first baseman, woot woot. And the boyfriend made the volleyball team and he is muy excited bout that, it's so cute haah. I wonder how the scrimage went today.. So I totally might be going to Molly's in June for her hot party with a HUMMER LIMO & CRUISE, mhmmmm. AND me and augie are SO her absolutely favorite duo because we are crazyyyyyyyyy, isn't that right Molly? haha TOMMORROW IS SAINT PATTY'S DAY! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MY FAVORITE!!!!!! BEER AND CORNBEEF AND GREEEEEEEEEENNNN The Mars Volta; The Widow = download it biotch. Tommorrow = 4 months ♥ 3 took away the ::empty space

[27 Feb 2005|10:54pm] [ mood | dorky ] [ music | Teenage Dirtbag ] This weekend = awesomenesssssssss Friday- Me and Steph decided to go tanning. *Ouch* and then walk over to the mall where Dan, friend off myspace, called her cell and picked us up with a few of his friends. We drove around and went back to his house for a little, and made a date to play bball. Saturday- hmmm bball practice :) woottt and then Gina told me to come with her, Tara, & Katie to go tanning so Tara gets it free. *Double Ouch* and then I went home took a shower did my homework and went back to Steph's. On the way to Stephs Bert and I bonded. hah He drove me but we had to make stops first. Supposively leather boats are possible according to him * hmmm. Our relationship is getting better towards each other.. anyway, back to Stephs and then we went by Shannon's for a few hours where I met her awesomenss friend Bri and got to talk to Angel on the phone forever. Ahh!! I miss him and the rest of the OLC gang.. Then today Dan and Jon picked us up, they "schooled" ..yea I'm admitting it, us in bball. But I'm learning some new tricks from them for the next butt whooping, so it's all good. Then he brought us to Casey O' Tools where his family owns the place, wooo. We got lunch and then went home. Yay for Dan and Jon. I see Augie in one week. Wooooooooooooooot <3 empty space

you're a bitch, but I love you anyway. [20 Feb 2005|11:53am] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | The Bitch Song ] hmm I spent yesterday with Augie since he is leaving tonight for Argentina. :/. We went ice skating and I cant get enough of that boy. I'm always so happy when I'm with him. Have fun in Argentina babe, I love you. Going to Palisades with the best friend today. woooottt wooott. The last time I was there was with Kristen last year. Or Ash for her bday. hmm I cant wait. Freshman's last game was Thursday, we won, but a lot. We reached our goal of 10 wins too. After the Freshman game Katie and I went to play in the JV game and in 4 mins. I scored 6 points, I felt so special. For the week how ever long it is I'm going to practice with JV/Varsity, and then it's alllll over. :( Coach said he is going to find a spring team for us so thats good, and also Softball is starting, this should be interesting. Considering I've only played baseball. Sound Garden tonight? hmmmm Augie sent me this song that "reminds" him of me. He sent it as a "joke" it is called, The Bitch Song, by Bowling for Soup. I love it, haha. 5 took away the ::empty space

[12 Feb 2005|06:58am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | ring ring ring ringing in my ears ] Battle of the Bands was last night. AWESOMENEESSSSS. I was right in the front the whole time and I can still hear ringing in my ear. Stafford and Framework were definately the best. I got Framework's demo! I loved them sooo much and I went to go get their autographs :). They are amazing, it was like you were at a real concert. haha when D @ B were playing, (so hot), they had a contest, this contest was MADE for me. Who can drink 2 cups of milk the fastest? CLARE CAN. I loveeee milk.. They asked for 2 ppl and I jumped up and won, duh. My ma buys me my own milk, I was done with both before the girl got to her second. They were screaming chung chung! I loved it. And I won a Hansen poster and Chili powder. What now :). No surprise, D @ B won. Larry got in trouble and wasnt allowed out. My mom told me to call to get a ride home, Larry will pick you up or something. So i was like oh ok, w/e. He comes to me in my room and was like call me like a half hour early and I will go hang out with Brad and then bring you and Steph to her house and then tell ma that there was traffic or something. I agreed, trying to help him out. I called him and then realized it isnt oging to end at 10, which he told me it would end at 10. I called him back and said no, there are more bands. He freaks out on me and my friend told me she could bring us home. So I told him this, and then 5 mins. later she asks me for the ride home. Called back LArry, he flips and I told him if he is going to be a dick I'm never going to do this again and all this shit. He called later on and we were stranded there. I told him to pick us up because that was what he was supposed to do. He said Mom was pissed and I need to get a ride home. So we went outside and the bus was ski club was there and all the ppl were coming out and I was looking for Augie! :( But he went in his car. We saw Adam and Steoh like jumped on his car and we got a ride home that why, but then my ma calls. dun dun dun. She was pissed that i didnt call her for a ride and I said you said Larry was gonna bring me home and he told me to call him and all this other shit she was freaking out and then she wanted me to come right home but I told her that we were already at her house and she doesnt trust me to begin with, Steph called yesterday and my mom didnt believe I was actually at practice because Steph wasnt but I had JV. This is going to make it a shit load better. It wasnt my fault. Larry called back and said he was gonna talk to her and that I'm fine and crap, which is bull. But whatever. This is going to make things just oh so wonderful with my ma. I thought things were getting better with her, I guess not. Practice this morning and then a party. Maybe movies with Cindy, I still gotta find out. TOURNAMENT TOMMORROW!!!!! The county tournaments, it's funny, out of the wholeee county, Hills and Valley were the only ones that signed up! grrrrrr. We were are playing/beating them tomorrow and that will be the end of tournaments. :( My boy is going to Argentina on friday for 2 weeeeeeeeeeeeeks. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh empty space

doo dooo dooo dooot doott daaa dddaaatt [01 Feb 2005|09:37pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Take a walk on the wild side - Lou Reed ] heyyy. We won again today :-*. I sucked, but the team did great. Midterms are almost over. Scoreeee. Me and Steph saw Coach Carter over the weekend. OH MY GOD. I LOVE THAT MOVIE. It was amazing and I loved it soooooooooooooooo much. Not to mention, Channing Tatum * Hottness?! I love this song, talk a walk on the wild side. :-* This weekend Cindy :) 2 took away the ::empty space

[28 Jan 2005|02:57pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Eminem ] At Steph's house. I'm just here, she is out getting her hair highlighted. :P Midterms this week, today I had soo much fun for hte Theater MIdterm. Hour and a half of improvisation. It was awesomeeeeeee. My family is starting to go back to how it was last year. The whole "let's just leave all the cleaning to Clare because she is the only one willing to do it and we are all too lazy, even though she comes home at 6 or 7 every night" rutine. My little brother has been really really upsetting me lately. It's kinda sad to have your LITTLE brother put you down so much. Larry was starting to be a dick too. He would just start saying unneseccary things and pick fights with me and stuff. When the one brother you get along with in your house starts busting on you, you feel alone. I was so upset the other night and I couldnt remember a damn thing for my math midterm, I just cried. I felt like the biggest baby. I hate that feeling, I shouldnt cry, but I cant help it. As much as I tried to stop, it got worse. So I just stopped everything and laid down with a magazine. After I was ok, I went downstairs to go on the computer to start my Theater Midterm, but Bert was being an ass and wouldnt let me on, and I didnt feel like starting anything by telling my dad to tell him to get off, and Charlie was being a DICK. I just walked downstairs and I have to get lip from him. I went upstairs into Larry's room thinking I would be ok there, thought wrong. He told me to get out, and then when he saw my eyes he gave me this whole attitude, "What the hell is up your ass?" You think when someone sees you upset they would be a little bit more considerate. It feels like the onyl place I'm welcomed is in my room, once I step out it's timne to pick on Clare. This year was going so good for me. My family was better, I was getting along better with my mom, I have an awesome boyfriend, and I just hate to think things will start to end up like last year. The funny thing is, out of every one of my brothers, Bert, the one brother that I barely talk to, always get shit from, is the one being the nicest to me. I'm fine now, I don't like to make a huge deal out of these things, I have better friends that I can get my bliss from. But, today Larry was being extremely nice and funny towards me, I guess he realized what he was doing. Idk, but w/e. I'll live. We won over game yesterday, 41-12. Since we beat them by 30 we didnt have practice today. Hellllllll yeaaaaa. Tomorrow is the Shoot-A-Thon and then I have to go work. I guess I will start studying for biology? :/ 1 year </3 My Angel *Memorial Sunday* I miss you dearly :) empty space

cooolldddd [23 Jan 2005|08:56pm] [ mood | devious ] [ music | The Used - Take it Away ] Won on Saturday. But I was playing horrible and then I had to be taken out because of my damn blood sugar and because I had a lot of "supposivly fouls" as the ref's called it. I hate refs. They should die. I wasn't even near the girl. ggrrr. I saw Cindy though :). Afterwards Louie, Ami, Steph, Aug, & I walked to Sunrise and then Steph and I went back to her house and just hung out, like every Saturday. I just stayed there for the weekend because of the snow, and because I'm cool like that. Fun times, she locked me in Phil's old room for about 20 mins. She took a sheet and tied one end to the door knob and the other end to her door knob across the hall. All because I kicked her butt for Augie. I eventually got out, but she jumped on me and we were pulling on each end of the rope, meanwhile the one end of the sheet was coming undone and it came off, having Steph flying into her door, and Phil's door, flying into my forehead leaving an awesome imprint of a door. It was worth it. I hate being told what to do. Unless it's certain people, otherwise, leave me alone. 3 games this week, 2 of which home. Anyone as excited as I am? I think not. The Used is started to become one of the favorite bands. <3 Augie is going to Argentina for 2 weeks in February. Wahhhhhhhh I stole this from Andrew tehe. - 1 - YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (Name of first pet + Street you live on): Abbie Maplewood 2 - YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (Name of your favorite snack food + Grandfather's first name): Cheez-It Larry 3 - YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (First word you see on your left + Favorite restaurant): Caution Gabriel's 4 - EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice + Last Vacation Spot): Oregano Windham 5 - SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied): Rabid Monkey Wayne 6 - FLY GIRL ALIAS: (aka J.Lo) - (First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name): C.Si 7 - ICON ALIAS: (Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen): Augie O.J. 8 - DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Went to High School): Puppy Hills 9 - BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink): Cheez-It Sambooka 10 - SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived): Maggie Maplewood 11 - ROCK STAR ALIAS: (Favorite Candy + Last Name Of Favorite Musician): Reeses Notebook 12 - LOVER ALIAS: (Favorite Baked Good + Bf/Gf Last Name): Brownie Roma 13 - GREASE ALIAS: (Favorite Swear Word + Last Word of Favorite Movie): Fuck McCracken - awesome 2 took away the ::empty space

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